Hi blog friends. Happy Halloween!! Are you celebrating?
[Having one of these babies for breakfast this morning is the extent of my celebration. Recipe coming up in the next post! ]
It was really amazing to take this much needed break from my mile-long to-do list. But I’m back. It feels great, really great, to be back!!
During the break I made sure to focus only on things that brought me joy. I spent hours reading books at night (and weekends). Hours watching tv (you knew that was coming, right?). And many more spending time with Adam, attending blog-related events (only the fun ones… like the Boston Brunchers anniversary brunch, dinner at Aragosta… pictures of those coming up soon on my Facebook page; and a rum tasting at a new local distillery… more on that soon too) and having drinks and dinners with family and friends.
Surprisingly, I also spent time cleaning (Adam will tell you not enough…but it was more than nothing) and organizing. I took the whole “dump the to-do list” mission seriously, so spending any time cleaning was pretty impressive. When I did, I actually had the urge to do it. Yup, miracles do happen.
I also rediscovered my love for (easy) running. Nothing crazy, just 3 milers on the treadmill. And lifting. It was fun to sleep-in on weekends and then on my own time (instead of the gym class schedule) do the workout that got me excited for the day. Good stuff.
While I’ve been unhappy at my job for a few years now, I was not planning on doing it this soon. This is a very big decision as you can imagine. Adam and I have been budgeting for this day for a while but it seemed like without a concrete plan there was never a really good time to do this. And at the end of the day, no matter how prepared you are – fears can always make you question yourself. It’s easier to take the “safe route.” I had a very stable job that paid well. If I ever doubted my abilities at my profession, the response to my resignation reaffirmed just how valuable I was viewed to the team.
But. At the end of the day it is important to follow your heart. I know very deeply in my heart that Adam and I will be ok. More than ok actually. We’ll be good. And that my happiness will make our marriage and family stronger. Not the money (we won’t starve and we’ll have a roof over our heads with a big kitchen and a garage <—our 2 requirements in our next home).
I also very quickly learned that nothing is irreversible. I know that if nothing else, this will be a learning experience for me. I hope that by taking a break from office work, I will be able to finally discover myself… and maybe figure out what I want to do when I grow up. It may be finance (and I have dozens of people willing to give me glowing recommendations and a standing offer to have my old job back, any time). It may be something else.
This was scary, I don’t want to undermine how gigantic this decision is (and how much planning and saving we’ve been doing for over a year). Don’t go telling your boss to f-off without being really ready for the consequences, k? But this break opened my eyes to what was really important to me. I was important to me. I’ve been feeling for a long time like I’ve been putting my life on hold, paralyzed by fear. I still don’t have a concrete plan for my future but we’ve budgeted for that.
I know we’ll have to overcome a lot of new challenges but I can tell you right now that I am incredibly happy. Like a giant weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I know our lifestyle will change completely but I’m ready for it. All of it.
So there you have it. I have one more week at my job and then I’m a free agent. I’ll definitely be spending more time on all things “Healthy and Sane” related and we’ll see what else (I’ve already accepted a volunteer position at Cooking Matters). The world is my oyster (whatever that means). BRING IT ON!!!!
PS – I have the best husband in the world. Just thought that’s worth mentioning
What did I miss over the past 2 weeks??