It’s been a week since my decision to stop dieting and I’m ready to share some progress thoughts with you.
1. I have not yet tried by-the-book “intuitive eating,” I’ve just literally been eating whatever I want. Lots of sandwiches were involved- all delicious and basically healthy. I am still me, which means that greasy junk food is of no interest to my palate. Good news. My daily desserts have also been consumed guilt free. Actually getting rid of food guilt has been the main “goal” for the week and it’s been easy so far. Maybe reality will hit if I start gaining weight like crazy but for some reason I feel like I’m not so all is good.
2. Speaking of weight gain – I think that’s really the only thing that I’m fearful of as part of this process. So I decided that a little shopping spree was in order to buy a few items that are looser yet flattering and that make me feel good at my current weight. It’s hard to fight off the urge to diet when all your clothes remind you of the former/thinner you.
[My new sweater – it’s soft and comfy and makes me smile ]
3. I wore the sweater above, feeling like hot stuff all day long only to come face-to-face with my first set-back while getting ready for dinner. None of my boots fit my calves anymore.
It took a lot of will power to fight off the tears and remind myself that these things don’t matter (we were almost late to our reservation because of course the boots thing threw me off as I was trying to find an alternative outfit, sans boots). This was the first time in a week I felt weak and defeated since I can’t just go out and replace my entire wardrobe (or even pretend like that’d be ok!).
4. Despite this curve ball, I’ve been happier this week than I have in a while. It could just be the honeymoon stage. I do not look forward to analyzing my hunger between every bite and I hope I won’t need to do that. Right now my focus is 100% on guilt-free eating and FITNESS. I told my trainer I’d like to stay away from the scale for a while as it will surely derail me (just like the boots almost did!) so we did a bunch of fitness tests yesterday that will be the baseline for my progress. That’s a much more positive thing to focus on in my opinion, and hopefully will also continue to motivate me to make healthy choices (because they will make me feel my best and will improve my fitness level).