Healthy and Sane

New habit building

January 19th, 2011 · 14 Comments · Uncategorized

Sorry for the wacky posting schedule. I’ve been all over the place lately…

To be honest, I’ve had a few rough days with my eating again and it really sucks the blogging creativity out of me. I really hate how I sound like a broken record; how I am seemingly motivated to change… and then I don’t. The thing is, food has been my go-to in times of happiness, sadness, anxiety, boredom all of my life. That’s a really tough habit to break even with the best of intentions. Somehow all of those promises don’t seem to matter in *that* moment…

BUT we won’t dwell on all of this because in the last 24 hours I started investing in changes I am certain will get me through things.

1) After my couching session with Christie last night, I realized how important it is for me to have someone like her that GETS IT. She does not sugar coat things. I have to do the work to change but she did remind me that this bingeing thing is not entirely about hunger or even food and that it’s time for me to start taking care of myself. Seriously taking care of myself and honoring my needs with things other than food.

This will take time. But just like that habit of reaching for food when I’m uncomfortable, I’m ready to start developing a new habit – putting myself first! No, it has nothing to do with avoiding bingeing right now, but taking care of yourself goes a long way; this is just the first building block… we’ll get to bingeing later.

But what does that even mean? It means putting yourself first for a period of time. Doing things that bring you pure joy with no alternative motive (so that exercise high after it’s over does not count because I’m not always enjoying it during). So… I couldn’t think of any non-food related joyful things, can you believe that? Confused smile I really couldn’t (except for mindless tv but I can do better!) but I promised Christie 30 minutes a day. Every day. That’s how you develop a new habit. That’s time that will be “selfishly” dedicated to me and me only. Everything else will have to wait.

I made a quick dinner after the call and then read for 2 hours. I just couldn’t put down the Garlic and Sapphires book… until I finished it. Pure joy. Smile

2) Today I took nearly every penny from my checking account (I have 89 cents left, no joke) and invested in five 30-minute personal training sessions with a trainer that is really inspiring. She kicks my butt and reminds me of not killing all that hard work with junkie food. I’ve taken her focus class at Healthworks three times already and she asked me about my food every single time (because the first time I told her I was having problems on that front). I need to see someone in person that will remind me of all the things I know… and will not give up until I change. She does it in that perfect way that’s encouraging and I’ve felt empowered after every single time I’ve worked out with her. Worth. every. penny. :mrgreen:

Do you have people in your life that motivate you? I need someone that can kick my ass, figuratively speaking Winking smile And I also need true unconditional support from people in my life – that’s my family, friends and YOU. Thank you!!

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14 Comments so far ↓

  • #1 - Julie (A Case of the Runs)

    Wow, I’d be scared to have that amount in my account, but your health is priceless & worth the commitment!

    • #2 - Elina

      No worries, this is just my personal account. We still have money for food and mortgage in our joint account 😉

  • #3 - Corey @ The Runner's Cookie

    That’s awesome that you found a trainer who motivates you that much! HW has some great people. I think you are totally right to focus on yourself first – the binging can’t be dealt with until the underlying issue gets fixed. As always thank you for your honesty – I know it’s not easy! You can do it!! My mom really motivates me – she pushes me to run harder than I think I can and truly believe in myself.

  • #4 - Lauren at KeepItSweet

    Taking time for yourself is a really good idea! I feel like one of my biggest challenges is when I am exhausted or stressed and the only good solution seems to be comfort food or a lot of any junk food. I am trying really hard to manage my stress levels and I’d love to hear how you do that, too.

  • #5 - One Healthy Apple

    I hope all your efforts pay off- I’m sure they will! Take care of yourself first and you will be able to focus on everything else. Blogs and the husband motivate me to get going 😉

  • #6 - MelissaNibbles

    Don’t take this wrong way, but it sounds like you might be trying too hard and putting a lot of emphasis on the food and weight loss. If you focused less on the food and more on just trying to be fit and happy, maybe you won’t feel as much pressure and turn to the food. I don’t know, I’m just speaking from experience. I hope that didn’t come across the wrong way. I mean it in a positive way.

    Your trainer sounds awesome. I love kick butt ladies!

  • #7 - Katie @The Small Boston Kitchen

    I love your honesty about your journey and have complete confidence that you will get to where you need to be. Good for you for going through all this change and for having the courage to make things better and happier for you. I’m rooting for you!

  • #8 - Stephanie @ The Cookie Battle

    Finding a good trainer is worth every penny (in my opinion) and your health and happiness are truly the most important things, so they are worth the investment. I know that you will get a handle on things soon :)

  • #9 - Marina

    Thanks for the book recommendation. Just put it on my hold list at the library.

    I think kick-butt workouts really help. The more often I work out, the easier it is to eat well. Your body feels clean and that junk foods comes at a price…not just cause it weighs you down but because its literally like, “I just ran 30 minutes, and it hurt, I’m keeping those lost calories for me, not giving them away to food”. Does that make sense?

  • #10 - Meghan@travelwinedine

    I am glad you are digging deeper for solutions. It’s never just about eating and exercise. We are here for you!
    My husband motivates me big time but also provides that unconditional love.

  • #11 - Cara

    It’s a rough roller coaster out there, huh? But I find it very inspiring that you are going to do something for yourself for 30 minutes every day. And good luck with the trainer!

    You can do this.

  • #12 - Tracy

    Good luck Elina! The personal training sessions sound like they’ll be fantastic .. I’ve always wanted a personal trainer but can’t afford on a student’s budget! Rooting for you!!

  • #13 - Shannon

    I think this sounds great. A talk with Christie, trainer, and doing things for YOU. Sometimes we forget that we are important, too, and we need to take care of ourselves!

  • #14 - alicia

    Good for you Elina! Sounds like you are making some appropriate decisions. Rafe seriously motivates me. He spends so much time in class or at the library working hard, that I feel super lazy when I don’t do the same!!