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I used to win in this battle almost every time. I was determined and focused… and I loved checking things off as I accomplished them, which made me want to do it again and again. And I saw changes, slowly but surely I was getting more fit. I was obsessive too, so it wasn’t all pretty, but the end seemed to justify the means. I was so close to my goal weight… so close.
Then something happened. I started relaxing my high standards, which was very helpful mentally… until what seems like out of nowhere, my pants no longer started fitting and I couldn’t really recognize the girl in the pictures.
I need structure (I know many of you are in the same camp!). I believe that Weight Watchers will give me that (will because I still for the life of me cannot just do it… I last maybe 1-2 days and then I’m off the grid; Weight Watchers what? I’ll get to it tomorrow…).
This battle is mental and that’s how I’m going to fight it. It’s time to stop telling myself stories of why there may be easier ways of doing things, of why today just isn’t my day and tomorrow will be better. Instead I will tell myself stories of how strong I will be if I continue to treat my body with respect. Feed it good quality food that will not only be delicious but also nourishing. Food that will make me a faster runner and a bootcamp machine (yup, that’s one of my goals 😉 ).
I will focus. I will do this. I will lose weight this year. Enough with self-defeating stories!