How’s it going everyone? After writing yesterday’s post, I took off to enjoy the sunshine. I ran, walked, people watched and as my sweat was dripping from the inside of my elbows, my head was getting a whole lot clearer. I felt so free!
Two and a half weeks ago I made the decision to stop calorie counting and begin the intuitive eating journey (has it really been only 2.5 weeks?!! In this fast paced life, I feel like months have passed by. No wonder I am not an expert yet. Duh!). Five days after that I announced that I was done training for the half marathon I signed up for. Listening to my body, both on food and exercise, seemed to go hand in hand… and all of a sudden I felt free. Here goes that word again – free. I was so wrapped up with goals, that I put myself in a little food and fitness jail. It doesn’t mean that I hated every moment of it, no. I love exercise and even though I didn’t always love my runs, I loved the feeling of accomplishing my goal. It did taste quite sweet. As to the food jail, I just stopped caring for calorie counting this time around. This is what worked for me in the past. Calorie counting has done for me what BFL has done for Janetha. It was tried and true, and I knew that if I stuck to it, I would lose the weight I recently gained and more. But this time around it just didn’t work because I constantly was going overboard and I was really stressing out about it. It created a roller coaster that provided no thrill whatsoever. So I let go. Of all of it. And body acceptance came quickly with it. If I’m going to listen to my body, if I’m going to give it time to adjust to this new “plan” – then I have to be patient.
After thinking about all of this on my run/walk yesterday, I realized that BFL cannot be the right thing for me to do at the moment. I am used to setting goals for myself. This is what I know, but this is what got me in trouble to begin with. For some reason this plan was appealing because I wasn’t counting calories but it still set up rules and I don’t need rules right now. I didn’t even ask my husband his opinion on all of this. I already know it. You are already perfect and I know you’ll drive yourself mad if you do this. I guess it’s fair of him to want a SANE wife rather than a crazy (possibly thinner) wife. I am sure he’d love my improved body but I also know that a price comes with that and apparently neither one of us is willing to pay it right now. All right, so that’s that. No BFL for me for now. We’ll see if I’m itching for a challenge in a bit but right now, trying to eat intuitively is plenty of a challenge as is. I still have not had one day where I can say I truly ate intuitively, so clearly there is work to be done.
Wanna see what I ate yesterday? I’m sorry to say it was pretty boring. It ended up being a hectic day and my meals were mostly snacks. I’ll keep the wording to the minimum. Here goes….
Food for Life millet bread with homemade almond butter and 1/2 banana + coffee
b.good turkey cousin oliver (with the special sauce = a must!)
The turkey burger was dry. I’m sticking to beef burgers next time!
Crisp veggies. Love!
Gotta have dessert!
And some classy wine. This totally brings me back to the year after college.
TJ’s american trek mix
TJ’s ww Tuscan pane (my favorite bread these days!!) with hummus and hot pepper rings. This whole sandwich was constructed because I needed the hot pepper rings but of course can’t eat them straight out of the jar. It was gooooood although I was way too full to eat it (but seriously NEEDED those pepper rings). I miss pickles.
Oh yes, aside from my run/walk, there was also a whole lot of curling with bricks. We bought 250 bricks at Home Depot – had to load them all into the cart, then into the car, then again unload them into our back yard. Oh yeah, good times. My outfit was also quite fitting for all of this. Haha. I felt silly.
Happy Easter Sunday if you’re celebrating. I’m off to put these bricks to use now. Peace!