Hi gang. How’s life? Right after writing this post, I plan on going for a long walk and maybe even a run. Still recovering from my cold but it’s too nice out not to go out to enjoy this weather. I just bought the Animal, Vegetable, Miracle audibook on iTunes so it should keep me some company.
So I wanted to get a little personal around here again. Here is the deal – I’ve been overeating lately but for some reason I stopped caring about that. Not in a “I’m letting myself go and I don’t care” way. I just feel like it will even out. I am SO passionate about healthy living that I know that those few extra cookies (or pieces of bread with baba ganoush, whatever) will just not matter in the big scheme of things. Something tells me that if I don’t put so much pressure on eating “right” that I eventually WILL eat right… because naturally I crave healthy things majority of the time. I care about eating high quality food, mostly organic and/or local produce. I want to be proud about all of that so following my heart in that respect will just make me happier.
So hopefully that made some sense. Here is the “BUT.” I’ve gained a few pounds. Again, somehow I just don’t really care. I went shopping yesterday and bought myself a whole bunch of new clothes that make me feel fabulous (the jeans could/should zip a little easier but that’s just one glitch we’ll overlook for the purpose of this post). Seriously, I was just beaming for the rest of the day after that “shopping therapy” session at Anthropology… and then I saw these before an after pictures and started thinking again…
Am I settling for a pudgy belly? Is that really the answer to happiness? Janetha looks incredible and maybe I should too. I LOVE lifting weights which is what the Body for Life program is all about. I actually used to have the book and did the workouts my senior year of college and really really loved them. What I’m struggling with here is this desire to change things up again at the same time as I feel like I am getting close to accepting myself the way I am today. I stopped judging my food choices, my body. I seem to have come to peace with all of that… yet I want Janetha’s hard abs. How can these two conflicting thoughts co-exist? Better yet, which one should I listen to? Obviously just accepting myself seems like the right (and easier) answer…. but I want Janetha’s hard abs. Oh, I said that already, huh? Ok, enough of this non-sense. Feel free to decode any of this. Moving on to yesterday’s eats.
Coconut/almond crusted french toast with fresh grilled pineapple and oikos with maple syrup + coffee
Leftover miso glazed cod + asparagus
Sorry, I know this picture is atrocious, but the meal was really yummy!
+ COOKIES, lots and lots of cookies, which I got in a thank-you package from Erin and Pete. The cookies were all crushed so I didn’t take a picture (would do their taste an injustice)… but let’s just say I ate my share’s worth (and some) and wasn’t really hungry for dinner after that.
… was at my parents’ house. They got take-out from Erik’s pizza & wings. The twist is that they ordered off the secret Georgian menu.
Chicken tabaka with rice
Pork “kebabs” with rice
Tomato/cucumber salad (onions on the side)
Lamb kebabs with rice
+ some vino (I had another glass or so)
The pork was waaaaay too salty (although the spices were nice) but the rice was great and the salad + khachapuri were awesome. The salty cheese and chewy dough was so nice. I had a little more of both.
My parents then served some Russian “paska” for Easter. I wasn’t hungry to begin with and certainly didn’t want more dessert but I had a taste.
This is basically the same as the Italian pannatone, except this loaf was super dry. I had a tiny bite and that was it.
This guy was store-bought. My mom later made her own fresh version. Here is a picture she emailed me. Looks much better! 😀
Have a great weekend!!! Any thoughts on my non-sense above?