So I bought the book “Intuitive Eating” by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch, and am trying to read through it as fast as I can. Apparently, my last 2 days of “intuitive eating” have not been so intuitive. I basically stopped calorie counting but proceeded with the same old “rules.” I allowed myself a certain number of snacks, stuck to healthy eats and called it a day. I was happy… I was “good.” Apparently calling a day “good” or “bad” is falling into the diet trap we’re all so used to. How can we help ourselves when our whole lives we’ve been told that a dinner of pizza and ice cream was not healthy or “good” by any means? Delicious maybe, but that’s another story… or is that it? Is that how I’m supposed to define whether a day was good or bad? Where does healthy fit into all of this? Ugh, I still have so much to learn!
So the book has been very interesting so far, but the whole time I’m reading it I have a knot in my stomach. I want to be this Intuitive Eater so bad! Is it really possible to get there? Can I really get to a place where I truly eat what I want, am at my “normal weight” (I hope that’s not fat!) and am at peace with food? I’m jealous of their success stories. I’m also skeptical. But I’m not through with the book yet, so we’ll see if I’m a convert by the end. I really really want to be one! 😀
So today I started just like any other regular day, with a breakfast involving my love – Barney Butter.
The second part of breakfast involved a smaller green monster: 1/2 banana, 0.5 c skim milk, 0.2 c white grape juice, fresh strawberries, 1/2 scoop whey protein, handful of baby spinach + a few ice cubes. I actually was weirdly satisfied by my first half of the breakfast but drank the green monster anyway because I knew calorically the 1/2 english muffin wouldn’t last me long. I can’t be eating all day long at work. Eating a few bites here and there, stopping, then eating again. I actually have real work to do! How does that work with intuitive eating? I hope they address this in the book!
Lunch – leftover mac & cheese with cauliflower:
Snack: oikos with fresh strawberries, raspberries + gooseberries (all from a local farmers market) + 1 medjool date and a drizzle of agave nectar. Yum!
Look at all that fruit (and “hairy” gooseberries. haha)!
+ 2″ sq of the blueberry coffee cake (computer mouse included to show size) – it made me super happy and satisfied for hours!
I went to the gym after work (my new routine for Mondays) and was absolutely starving mid-class. I was perfectly happy before the class (didn’t even think about food) but food was all I could think of during class and I could not wait to get home (no emergency snacks were found in my purse… I looked!). By the time I got home, the idea of cooking my perfectly healthy bok choy dinner (which would probably take at least 40 minutes) just seemed completely unappealing. I wanted food. I wanted food now, and actually if I’m being honest with myself I wanted pizza!
So yes, I had pizza! Intuitive Eating says that in order to truly become an Intuitive Eater you have to stop with the concept of forbidden foods that inevitably cause guilt once consumed, and them lead to bingeing. This happens because the idea of something forbidden makes you crave it more so when you eventually break down, you not only eat that forbidden food, but eat it in really large quantities because you think you won’t have it ever again… or at least not any time soon. I’ve been pretty much thinking about Upper Crust since last Thursday (i.e. last binge night) and I wanted to have it but this time not overdo it, and not hate myself for eating it. I kept the toppings healthy (mushroom + artichoke hearts) and this was amazing! So incredibly satisfying. I stopped after every slice, evaluating whether I truly wanted another one, and I did (I clearly didn’t eat enough before dinner). I wanted all 4 (1/2 of the small pizza). This is a small plate, btw.
Pizza was followed by dessert. In retrospect I think I didn’t really need it. I’m still testing my limits, and what “eating what I want” really means. This is a 100 calorie coconut So Delicious ice “cream” mini sandwich. It was really creamy and very decadent and was the perfect ending to the meal, but again, I don’t think I ate it because I was hungry or even truly craved dessert. I think I ate it because it sounded like fun. Pushed me slightly over the edge fullness-wise. I’m still learning… 😕
So there you have it. You may see extra junk food in the near future, but it’s all in the name of fixing my relationship with food. Noble goal, don’t you think? 😉 If you think you are truly an Intuitive Eater, how did you become one? Or was did this always come naturally to you?